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    For Better or For Worse: 10 “I Do’s” of Singleness

    I recently read a fantastic blog about one woman’s commitment to explore the important things she says “I do” to throughout her marriage. I say fantastic because it truly was insightful and helpful – if you’re married. Marriage is held as the most significant institution in a human being’s life to foster growth and maturity through faithfulness, endurance, and commitment through a host of things over a lifetime of seasons. The inundation of reading material alone you can find on this subject suggests there’s an element of truth to this. However, one of the hardest things for the single (divorced, widowed, bachelor, bachelorette – or otherwise) is wondering whether we…

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    Soul Care: After the Storm

    Several years ago, I was driving home from college when I found myself literally straddling the line of sun and storm. Or maybe I was driving from home back to college. It doesn’t really matter, but I do specifically remember driving on Highway 421 watching dark blue monsters rolling in on one side while the fading sunlight streamed in through my other window. It was bizarre, because one second it wasn’t raining on my passenger side, then I blinked and a curtain of rain began falling over the right half of my car. Half the road was bathed in sunlight, the other half drowned in rain water. Because those kinds…

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    Risk the Intersection: My Flight with Leo

    I love flying; I’m fairly certain I always have. There is something oddly spiritual about ascending into the white fluffy reefs as we swim through the air, as if the skies were some mystical inverse of the ocean. I love seeing the city lights twinkle like the constellations in the moonlight; man’s monumental reflection of the heavens. Seeing lightning flash below instead of above, cruising over mountain ranges, and turning the volume of the world to mute – I love it all. There is such an awe in becoming acutely aware of your own smallness while enjoying it from the privileged view of God. But as an introvert, what I…

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    Who is the God of Tamar?

    I had already encroached on my friend’s time long enough. Yet his hand beckoned me to stay across from him, welcoming the prolonged dialogue as we coaxed my words of fear and doubt out from hiding. A duet of angst, my fears lamented shakily in verse; his words harmonized with comfort and confidence. My doubts pushed back. His reassurances doubled down. I was thankful for the chance to openly struggle with such a compassionate voice, but at the end of it all, there remained a final chasm he could not cross with me – the chasm of womanhood. There exists a tension within me, a discomfort within my soul, as…

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    Fleeing God

    Ragged gasps fell offbeat with steady footfalls on the pavement, harmonizing with the water splattering behind them. It had been a long time since I had run. But my eyes forward, squinting against pellets of rain, I was determined to run. It was the only thing left I could do. Though a stitch was ripping through my side and blisters were forming against my drenched tennis shoes, I ran on. My life depended on it. I had to get away. I ran as far as my feet could carry me, from everything I had grown weary of, hated, or knew, until I was lost. By that time, it had stopped…

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    Healing in the Water

    I stood over the water, toes curled tightly around the ledge, and adjusted my goggles again – an old nervous tick of mine. A lone swimmer turned in the next lane, splashing water over my bare feet. I recoiled. It was cold – but I suppose that’s been my complaint about pools for seventeen years. My mom tells me that I was terrified of water as a child, so she enrolled me in swim lessons to help me overcome that fear. Needless to say, I did. I swam nearly every day from the time I was five until I was twenty-two. Seventeen years. It was probably my first love, but…

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    Not Ready for the Yes

    “Bunu istiyorum!” Little Syrian eyes searched upward as a bag of chips was thrust into my hands. “You want this?” I repeated, holding the bag back out to him. “Evet. Bunu istiyorum, bunu istiyorum!” “Tamam – Okay.” I put the bag in the basket and walked on, trailing behind his mother. He ran on ahead, zigzagging down the aisle touching everything in his reach. He plucked another bag from the shelf, this time running to his mother. “Bunu istiyorum!” She looked back at me, holding the bag in her hands. “Bu ne? What’s this?” “I already got him some chips,” I said, holding up the first bag. She turned back…

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    The Long Way Home

    Dear Despairing Heart, You are in a lonely place. You have traveled so far, but all your eyes can see is the unending road before you. You are parched and wounded. You are burdened and cast down. You have cried out again and again in curses and pleas. But it’s not because you wish to retreat to your old forbidden and frivolous roads to nowhere. No. You, my weary one, are simply desperate to make it home. I know you have not forgotten that at one time you had no home, a cursed pilgrim, made to carry on hopelessly toward a dead end. Your aimless wanderings brought with it both…

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    Jesus Is Not Enough

    Red acrylic chimed like Christmas bells as her fingers drummed the ceramic cup cradled in her hands. The ruby sparkled in the morning light that peered in through the window we had propped our backs against, letting our voices drift amidst the rays of light. It was the first collective breath we were taking of the weekend, so we recounted our week’s news. It was not a particularly happy conversation, but there was a peculiar relief in having it in our caffeine haven. And so we confessed our wounded discontentment to the rhythm of her red acrylic nails that directed our pace and filled our pauses.   We laughed and…

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    To Be Rooted In Fear

    I looked down into the blue abyss far below. Perched upon the edge of the world – my body screamed in protest of being flung from where I crouched. Adrenaline pumped loudly in my ears as my brother repeated once more from the swirling water below, perfectly at ease – ‘Michelle – just jump. All you have to do is stand and jump!” I wanted to; we had flown on countless airplanes, traversing the world by sky to the edge of an island we could barely pronounce – and I lived for moments like this, moments of reckless abandon. But in this moment I was scared. I was terrified. “I’m…

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